Birthday wishes

Some things are left undone,
Some words are left unsaid,
Some feelings are left unexpressed,
But someone as nice as you,
could never be left unwished :)

It was very nice for 'someone' to write the above words and it certainly made me work my cheek muscles. In reply, I say:

Someone as nice as you also could also never be left unwished...so "same to you". I want to wish you a good day everyday. It's what we make of the day that counts...happiness can never be a continuous long lasting state of mind. Take life as it comes, enjoy the elated times, suffer the sad times. Once acquired, never lose the skill to feel every emotion but at the same time strive to bend ur beautiful mind towards neutrality :)

Word of the day from me: neutral

Being critical? or maybe nonsensical?

I am going to be a little critical in the following regard. Why is that people say "you may lose me forever" or "You can have me forever". Don't they realise it's not them who can decide whether or not someone stays in your heart/mind forever? Is it really in our hands (or minds) to decide whether someone who has touched your heart to be erased from it? Whether it be a friend or foe, someone who has touched our hearts will stay - if you are anything like me. As long as we don't let the mental or perceived cardiac connections adversely affect our functioning of life, it's alright to let things be the way they are. I'm probably just missing the point or not even making sense! Oh well. I tried to put the thoughts out in a coherent manner, but can't do a better job in this sleep-deprived state. I will choose to believe what I want to and everyone else can do the same. It's a personal thing.

Amma - I don't know what to do!

Mother's love cannot be transcended by anyone else. I agree. And that's probably why I cannot handle it if someone says anything against my mother, even if she is wrong. Stupid, but that's the way I feel. Daughter's authority says "I am allowed to shout at her, disapprove of her actions and her ways of doing things, not anyone else, even my own father." As I write now, she shouts at me...but I know that she is feeling helpless; always wants things to be her way and refuses to accept the reality.

I cry...I'm helpless too. I say things impulsively, without thinking it through. I tell her she is not blessed by God and that's why she got us...She screams at me for saying that too! I understand her vulnerabilities, her inabilities and her powerlessness over the whole situation presently. But what can I do? As I said...I'm helpless too.

What is the solution? I don't know. Time is probably the healer. I intend to manage my time better so that I would be an asset, rather than someone who enrages her mother and later cries.

She is beautiful and kind-hearted, but the only problem with her - as with all orthodox dominating wives - is that she wants everything her way! The reality screams at her and doesn't abide by her rules and so she cries feebly. When I see her cry, I can't handle it. The problem is that I also can't do what she wants.

So What is the solution? I don't know. I love her. I want her to be happy. Let's see if this will of mine finds a way :)