Back with two minds

In the past few months, I have been dormant from the whole world, i.e my parents, friends, class mates, family, etc.. oh and even my blog! ;) I have gone away to various places including Hamilton, Waipu and Queenstown as part of the medical training. I have had a break from my everyday world, but it feels good to be back, for the weekend.

I've sneaked a peek into many lives as they relate to their mental and physical well-being. It becomes glaringly evident how everyone reacts differently to a given situation and how varied the responses are, to being unwell. Being in the real world as opposed to being with simulated/actor patients rocks! There is a general feeling of being inept and bungling at times, but I think that incompetence can be overridden through experience over time. Or will it?

Queen's birthday weekend - was a treat to the ears! Indian classical music concerts - Saturday was the violin duo by Kanyakumari and her shishya Embar Kannan danced with their fingers on the violin and left a divine vibration in my ears :)
Many melodious treats followed this concert. Hindustani and carnatic music alike. Music is truly divine!

On a completely different note,something that hasn't changed is extreme emotions at random times - why hasn't it changed? It's not like knowledge is lacking. What use is any knowledge if we still suffer from not being able to practice it accordingly? Every action or thought of mine that I pursue can be explained, should be changed according to me, but in the end...all I do is repeat mistakes and punish myself through a strange channel of thoughts...I know this is a vague narration of what is in my mind, please don't go nuts over trying to understand this pearl of my life. It's not important really! ;)

It's 3:10am and when someone as over-sleepy as me can't get to sleep, there's obviously something wrong within the depths of the jelly inside my skull...

Help plz! haha. ZZzzzzz