Amma - I don't know what to do!

Mother's love cannot be transcended by anyone else. I agree. And that's probably why I cannot handle it if someone says anything against my mother, even if she is wrong. Stupid, but that's the way I feel. Daughter's authority says "I am allowed to shout at her, disapprove of her actions and her ways of doing things, not anyone else, even my own father." As I write now, she shouts at me...but I know that she is feeling helpless; always wants things to be her way and refuses to accept the reality.

I cry...I'm helpless too. I say things impulsively, without thinking it through. I tell her she is not blessed by God and that's why she got us...She screams at me for saying that too! I understand her vulnerabilities, her inabilities and her powerlessness over the whole situation presently. But what can I do? As I said...I'm helpless too.

What is the solution? I don't know. Time is probably the healer. I intend to manage my time better so that I would be an asset, rather than someone who enrages her mother and later cries.

She is beautiful and kind-hearted, but the only problem with her - as with all orthodox dominating wives - is that she wants everything her way! The reality screams at her and doesn't abide by her rules and so she cries feebly. When I see her cry, I can't handle it. The problem is that I also can't do what she wants.

So What is the solution? I don't know. I love her. I want her to be happy. Let's see if this will of mine finds a way :)